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Depression, Anxiety & the Faithful

Depression, Anxiety & the Faithful Depression and anxiety happen to the Faithful.  And I know this for sure because I have been there. Granted, I am on the other side.  But from that side, I want to tell you a few things, take them or leave them. Either way, it’s okay.   Most people would not believe the depths of the sorrow I walked through about two years ago.  For the most part, in public, I didn’t reveal how bad it …

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How to Survive the Wilderness on a Road Less Traveled

How to Survive the Wilderness on a Road Less Traveled In grade school, I had to memorize a poem. If I am, to be honest, the one I picked was the easiest of those to chose from.  If you have read anything I have written before, you know, I was not a super gifted student.  Back then, it wasn’t so much the road less traveled, but the road that was the less intimidating… less destructive and would not amplify my …

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In Defense of Anxiety: A Friend of Jesus’ Walk with Terror

I remember, I believed I was dying. I was wholly wracked with anxiety. My heart pounded so intensely, you could see the reverberation through my pajama top. If you have ever met me in person, you know, under the mounds of flesh layering my sternum, this is impressive.  “Is this anxiety?  Am I over-reacting?  It’s ‘JUST’ anxiety… you are such a mess.” I willed myself to calm down, threw up, and staggered to the couch to Google symptoms of a …

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Christian Life in Limbo: How Low Can I Go? REALLY LOW

Christian Life in Limbo: How Low Can I Go? REALLY LOW My life has been in limbo for an exceedingly long period of time. I am in the pit.  And no, I haven’t buried a loved one, and all my cats and children are in fairly good health. Wait, I take that back about the cats.  I just left them at the vet to be dipped in a sulfur solution to kill a fungus. Y’all, A FUNGUS. What is this …

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Welcome to Crazy Town: Voices in My Head, Zoloft in my Cabinet, Jesus in my Heart

If you REALLY believed, you would be free from this depression/sadness/illness. Really? If I believed. You mean, if it were up to me? As if I were the mayor of crazy town. So far in my 45 journey, I have yet to manifest anything too spectacular by my own accord.  Granted I have birthed 4 children.  Whether biology or magic… not so much by my own powers.  I do make really good mashed potatoes, but it’s hard to botch something …